Dreaming On

Had a seriously weird dream.Well it was messed up.I shall not say who this dream includes.Whether I was in it also not telling.Dream went like this;

Playing basketball then I go for the rebound SUDDENLY someone comes and holds my hand I turn to see *not telling* my head was like wtf is happening lol.Then I woke up.SO LAME i wanted it to continue *sigh*

Well moving on.This past weekend I had alot to do.Friday (technically counts as weekend doesn't it? lol anyway had to do project *ALONE* lol.Then saturday played baskeball in the afternoon with hakim and farah then got ready before dinner with Yudish's dad,Yudish,Roshan (yudish's brother) and James. Later I got back and went on the computer for awhile before turning in.Sunday was TIRING yeah thats how I'll put it.Had AND1 which is a basketball competition to those who don't comprehend the meaning. We stayed there for 9 freaking hours just to play TWO GAMES.The reason?? well it's coz there we're 300 teams in TOTAL (split to all the different categories) We won't the 1st game but lost the 2nd (lost only by 3 ok so don't laugh)

Moving on (once again) Today was pretty good I guess. All those to went to James' birthday party told me how it was (wasn't there since I went for AND1) HAPPY BELATED TO JAMES ROBINSON btw :D.Didn't study much except for Sivik's (which is a TOTAL rip off of Moral btw remembering 40 something good attitudes or wtv they need to remember) went to the library TWICE. Faizura merajuked coz I called her stupid granny (FYI she whacks me all the time and I don't complain) but I apologized after :D.Yeah so thats how my weekend + monday blues went. Not TOO BLUESLY as I thought it would have been.

P.S. Congratulations to Ash Li for attending her 1st EVER SLEEPOVER lol sorry Ash Li I really needed to do that :P

Turning 15.... Big Deal

Well birthdays were never a big thing for me.At least i got wishes :D haha.Presents present a not I shall not bother materialist can shove a notebook up their asses.Just for fun I'll list down the things I got;

Condom from Chow Swee Rong (VERY twisted Swee :D) < at least it was Durex :P
2 just tea's from Hsing Shan (at least i had my " anesthetic" while math)
Journal from Hannah Azlan (with quotes in random pages,even though i don't WRITE)
Japanese Biscuits and Chocolates from Syazren Huzaimi (Very creative mixing the two :D)
High Fives/Handshakes/Wishes and Continuest covers of Happy Birthday from the form 3 student body (well MOST of them)

Singers and "Vocalist";
3 Hormat students :D the ones i could hear were Yudish,James,Swee,Ian,Faizura,Aisyah,Steve,Bryan,Benjamin (and alot more that wasn't as distinct)

Special Renditions;

Faizura Hajizi (with her wit and randomness added of course) & Tan Ashli (gilaaa version of 'Born in the Zoo'.

After school I guess it kinda helped my confidence while playing basketball (until 3 ONLY since I had to be somewhere else) Jerry actually passed this time since he thought I should have my moment of glory (thanks "Yao") after the "game" just shot around mostly 3 pointers la :P.

Thanks to everybody who made my day today whether it was by wishing,giving, or whatnot.
Now I shall count my white hair while waiting for my so called "Sweet Sixteen"


Music - Kill by Jimmy Eat World, Pills by The Perishers (recommendation from Faizura)

Great ASS KICKING Lyrics : D

You're a part time lover and a full time friend
The monkey on you're back is the latest trend
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train
I kiss you all starry eyed, my body's swinging from side to side
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Here is the church and here is the steeple
We sure are cute for two ugly people
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

The pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me
So why can't, you forgive me?
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

I will find my nitch in your car
With my mp3 DVD rumple-packed guitar
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu du

Up up down down left right left right B A start
Just because we use cheats doesn't mean we're not smart
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

You are always trying to keep it real
I'm in love with how you feel
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

We both have shiny happy fits of rage
You want more fans, I want more stage
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Don Quixote was a steel driving man
My name is Adam I'm your biggest fan
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Squinched up your face and did a dance
You shook a little turd out of the bottom of your pants
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu du
But you



Theres only one person i would be talking about

Survey (I Hate Being Tagged)

THE BASICS
Real name: Arif Bin Omar Lee
Nickname: A.O.L, OTH Fan Boy, Lucas Scott, Macho, Chinaman
Married: Nah but willing too (when it's the right person)
Male or Female: Male
High School: Seri Hartamas
College: It'll be Duke,North Carolina (Chapel Hill) or Science Po'
Short or long hair: Short/Bushy
Are you a health freak: I'm cautious about the oil & nonsense
Height: Inbetween 5'11 / 180 cm
Do you have a crush on someone: It's not a crush it's LOVE
Do you like yourself: Depends on the moments I'm judged currently I think I'm ok
Sport: Basketball,Football,Swimming & Rugby
Righty or Lefty: Righty

FIRSTS
Surgery: Does circumcision count LOL
Sports : Football when I was in kindergarten;Basketball when I was in Primary School (std 3,4)
Person you see in the morning: Dad & Mom
Award: Always second place never 1st (stupid curse lol)
Sport you joined: Basketball
Pet: Only had a Rabbit & a Hamster (quite awhile ago)
Vacation: Port Dickson
Concert: James Morrison & Rick Price
Crush: You already know who I Love

CURRENTLY
Doing: Watching dance videos (influence of Ash Li)
Going to: Watch One Tree Hill & continue talking to people on MSN
Want to: Play Basketball SOO BADLY!!!

YOUR FUTURE
Want kids: Any number (accidents happened LOL)
Want to get married: Obviously; to a girl whom i love & will always be even though she does something silly
Careers in mind: Author/Writer,Professional Basketball player or Coach or Musician

WHICH ONE IS BETTER
Lips or eyes: Eyes
Hugs or kisses: Hugs (everyone needs a little cuddling)
Shorter or taller: As long as shes shorter than me :P
Romantic or spontaneous: A bit of both
Sensitive or loud: Sensitively Loud :D hahahahah
Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant Trouble Makers :D hahaha

HAVE YOU EVER
Kissed a stranger: LOL I'd be willing to (has to be a Girl la)
Drank bubbles: Think so when I was a little baabby haha
Lost glasses / contacts: Don't use either
Ran away from home: Nah , not yet hahaha
Liked someone younger: Nope
Liked someone older: What?? it was a freaking one night stand (don't blame me) < JOKE
Broken someone's heart: Yeah but unwillingly
Been arrested: If it's for skinny dipping or drinking I wouldn't mind
Liked a friend: Err you people do know whom I'm in love with yeahh?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
Yourself: Indefinitely when I need to
Miracles: They happened everyday so yeah
Heaven: Well it'd be stupid if there was no after life but who knows yeah?
Santa Claus: Well if his not a freaking pedofile I'm fine with guys giving me gifts :D
Angels: Yes I see one in school everyday :P
God: A person who created us yes but to punish us willingly for doing no wrong? no

Is there someone you want to be with right now?
I'm talking to her so DUH!!

Being In Love & Being Loved (TWO DIFFERENT PEOPLE)

Well love kinda a strong word don't you think?Ya it is well to me that is.I've hardly thought of breaking someones heart even though I've felt it but guess what?We dont choose who we love... it just happens.I don't blame her for loving me but being on the other side does really suck too.

She says I'm avoiding her? well I'm not I prefer to face my problems head on (believe it or not) It's just weird being on the other side (yes Ash Li I FINALLY understand lol)

It's not that shes not good looking or anything I mean I do .... Ash Li and shes not good looking < @ Ash Li "JOKE :D" Well it's always been personality wise for me & obviously that smile I get whenever I see her.

So if the person who is falling for me is reading this I'm sorry to say I love someone else


the .... means "LOVE"

Last Music Listened to = Ache by James Carrington :P

One Tree Hill Quotes Make Me Wanna Live Life To The Fullest

"Make a wish and place it in your heart. Anything you want, everything you want. Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is gonna come from, the next smile, the next wish come true. But if you believe that it's right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind to possibility of it, to the certainty of it. You just might get the thing you're wishing for. The world is full of magic. You just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it? Good. Now believe in it, with all your heart..."

I made that wish right after I read it. I'll always love you (not the stupid always that people don't mean I mean it seriously) & like I said "till that time,I'll be waiting"

That's Current How I Feel (Most of the time this month)

When i saw your face
It was like a space It was like a space
In my heart was filled In my heart was filled
It's like i knew It's like i knew
From the very start From the very start
That you were every other part of me That you were every other part of me

Chorus:
It's like I have loved you since It's like I have loved you since
From the moment when From the moment when
Since time began Since time began
You Fill my heart You Fill My Heart

Oh, love of mine Oh, love of mine
Why did it take so long to find Why did it take so long to find
Your touch Your Touch
Hope was never gone Hope was never gone
Even though it took so long Even though it took so long
To find you To find you





I think a monkey could figure out who I'm talking about :D

Make Or Break? Life's An OTH Rip Off

Well my week's been hecktic.A million decisions to make & to forgive a horrid foe.I'll list down as follows;

Monday = Played basketball at bukit kiara equestrian - Howie's finger got cut (stupid Keefe lol),i think my team won but I'm not so sure.Benjamin lost his ball *sigh* it was a nice one "Battle Ground" ball if i remember correctly.

Tuesday = Had class then stayed back for basketball.Played with ian one on one i won :P but still his getting better

the rest is kinda a blur lol

Friday = Boredom except after recess pn cheung called us down and cleared the water on the hakim situition saying that we should forgive him bla bla bla but I'll decide on that later on.SUDDENLY!!! Affiah handed me this paper with "someone" technically declaring their liking for me,its a shock coz i doubt anyone has thought of me in that light.So on I passed it to Ian,Ashli,Alfin & Harris to read since I didn't dare to at that current moment.Ian was relieved to know that shes over him lol.Ashli was happy for me even though she knows I still have feelings for her.Harris was like "thats what you get for hanging with her"Later during the night Ashli & I had this randomness session which we asked & answered random question :P thats what i call a "connection" or opening up *wink*

Anyway I'm sorry to tell everyone I don't feel the same way about her but only as a friend (refering to that "someone"),thats my decision for now.Also i have to write an official letter to SMKBB requesting a friendly match (to all SMKBB students I'll apologies for the UNBELIEVEABLE whooping ur gonna receive since it's home court :P *evil laugh* & yea the next intervention test is coming up next week my percentage this time wasn't that bad 65% baby :D

The Only Raven Surrounded By Crows?

Ya i am positive that I'm the only true loner the only person who hates it when people are surrounding him.Their snide comments, bad attitudes , & annoying personalities.Willingness to entertain other people while people sit in the corner watching.Most of those people don't even know what their doing most of the time.@ that "person" i guess you did stick with your words hanging out with someone else.If your asking if i enjoyed the party the answer is NO & plan not to attend any of them in the coming time.

Loner :is a label for a person who avoids, or is isolated from human intereaction. There are many reasons for solitude, intentional or otherwise.

So yes I am the Solitary Raven.



Music = Anything emo & scremo (ya didn't think I'd listen to that kinda music)

Quote-Unquote

E.E. Cummings once wrote;

"To be nobody-but-yourself--in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else--means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting."

Well after reading that it finally hit me that people seem to think that changing oneself extremely for silly reasons but if it's for the better i'll change for her or anyone that i need to for that matter.We don't revolve the world it revolves us.We change our characteristics our looks for people we love.I'd prefer to live so in a world with peace,freedom of speech,no pollution & good music :P.Any who I'll never stop fighting in this current life coz if i don't the most theoretical thing that'll happen is I'll probably die or struggle very badly.I really wanna get the Adidas TS Pro-Model Garnett (you don't see me saying this often) but maybe someone will get it for my birthday *cough cough* but I'm not the materialistic type & the shoes i have i really appreciate as it is.I'll be off to yudish's birthday tomorrow (or today technically) around like 25 people will be attending.


Music = Jason Walker - You Fill My Heart