Expectations, Dedication & Disappointment

Expectations;

Most of us hold on to one thing.... expectations.We expect our family,friends & life go be good to us but things don't always turn out the way we want them too.So now we fight to gain back our perspective and expectations of our loved ones.So don't stop if you fall rest a moment and comeback with a vengeance and your demon's will be stopped - A.O.L.


I'd used to think the world was easy to live in back when I was in my primary years... going around without a single care in the world.Chasing friends during recess,throwing ice at random people & making noise for the heck of it but I've grown out of that now.We put our entertainment and leisure time over time which could be put to much better use.

Dedication;

You'll win championships here... and if you don't but I see you playing the way you should play, I'll share one of mine with you.If you play the way you play and you dedicate yourself to doing it they will come.It's like that dreams if you build it they will come.You may have to put your arms around a couple guys and take them with you but you can't drag them you need to take them with you. - Bill Russell's wonderful words to Kevin Garnett.

Disappointment;

We might not win every game nor will we lose every game but it's what we gain from the lost or the win.We gain respect by learning to lose as champions holding your head up everytime and not looking back to regret just put the pass behind you and make sure next time around everything you do will help your team. K.G.'s team was knocked out 6 consecutive times during the 1st round of the playoffs he also waited 13 years for a REAL chance to play with a great team to contest for the NBA playoffs he once said "Losing hurts,losing hurts.What Imma gonna do quit? Imma quit?Thats not even in my vocabulary" those words hung in my head and made me remember I have 2 more years to leave my mark on Hartamas we shall win a championship soon enough we just need teamwork and we're ready to take it to every single school out there.

Holidays...... Was I Looking Forward To It or Wasn't I

Truth be told I have no idea if this holidays was something I was looking forward for..... maybe because I may or may not have needed a break from it all. Now I'm thinking I'd like an adventure who'd I take along with me;

1. Yudishtra.Reason-obviously we all need a joker while on the road but if he'll come on time is another thing and his always saying he needs to get away from K.L.
   
2. Mae Yin .Reason-only time I'll get to spend with her if she decides to go to Aussie :( she says its a good place mehh I'll go kacau her after I get my "book" published haha
3. Howie THE MOOSE.Reason-he got his GPS tracker HAHA no la well see anytime his around it's considered an experience (example the Great Expedition) and he knows his stuff.
4. Hazim Sazali.Reason- his Hazim Sazali (need i say more?)
5. Qistina Shah.Reason- well I just want to show her why I'm suppose to be abang and she's suppose to be the adik :D (height difference,maturity,wisdom and wit)

I'll also need some basketball buddies along the way so what the heck :D

1. Jerry Lim Der Yuit.Reason- someone I know can score at will haha.
2. Fazlan Nizamuddin.Reason- good person at heart and another great player (which means Alia needs to tag along meh It'll be like the roadtrip to save Mouth aka Daniel O.O is he gonna be in trouble soon?)
3. Keefe.Reason-even though his stone age his still a goodie at heart and "kinda" funny at times
4. Nadhil Aqran.Reason-He needs the experience lol (yes Farah can come along too)

Any other people willing for an adventure do IM me :D

signing off.... Lonely Boy

I Have Nothing To Live For (SERIOUSLY)

All the past experiences,goals,future and present..... seems like its useless and I don't know what I want in life..... Guess your not the only one Qis *sigh*.Almost everything I did wasn't worth it.So should life continue or should it end? Coz I dunno why I've been feeling very drained lately....

Goals;

1st conclusion getting on a good publishing company for my book :P which i am currently working on.Need an impartial figure to give me a full on review exactly like simon cowell honest and blunt hahaha.I'll probably need to brush up on my reading/writing i mean maybe during this last period of the hols i'll go to Borders and get a stack :P.

2nd after my great moments playing for school.Pick up basketball as a hobby or if needed be a author/basketball player either way it'll be good.But don't worry my friends I won't remember who i am when I'm living my dream in the NBA.My nickname will be "Chinaman" as a tribute to Adam Hussain, "Macho" as a tribute to Farah Amalina or "AOL" as a tribute to "Tutor Girl" lol.

3rd last resort after wasting all my families/governments money become a Basketball Coach whether it might be school,college,national,international,or NBA :P.


The thing is it doesn't matter what i do as long as I'm doing something i love whether it might be Journalism,Basketball,Music or Acting ;O (did i just consider that? haha) & I'll still be up to it if u need a political assistant hehehe or i'll be the leader for MCA same goes for Yudish at MIC.That's all i can think of now.


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was all that ( written on Thursday, March 13, 2008) a bunch of hopes? or am I gonna prepare myself to be in that situation?

The truth is I don't know what to do with my life....

Your sincerely,
Lonely Boy
(that should be my true nickname)

Hazed , In Pain & Mentally Drained

The past week's been tiring yeah not going through the motions of sleeping for the length of an 8 hour margin.Tuesday included being off finally from mid terms :P woot woot..... but still we had to finish up our projects.I wasn't in the mood to stay back on that day just didn't feel like it.Wednesday was the enjoyment to watch A,C & G get their jabs which I had on the following day.Since they couldn't partake in any tough activities only Hormat was left :D Had training on Wednesday..... it was hazing 101 for me.Obviously I can't make a lay up (properly according to Jerry) no doubt there but we all have our weaknesses.I make up with my outside shooting,hook shots and passing... unlike "someone" *rolls eyes*.Oh yeah haven't updated in quiet awhile (just noticed) Today's jab was misquoted as a numbing pain injection... didn't careless just got in the seat (I was 1st AHHA) gave the card without noticing it the nurse said the whole "big" ordeal was over.Just remembered Pn Sarinah ORDERED me to collect money for the ceriathon thingy which I think is a whole load of B.S. taking into account that we're not salesmen or community workers you can't be asking secondary school students to be doing this going from house to house to get "donations"

Moving on someone shocked me by staying up till 1 + am doing their project and later telling me they had otai burger -_- well theres a 1st time for everything and yes I admit I don't know EVERYTHING about you. In commemoration with teachers day 2morrow shall be filled with a "wonderful" amount of performances including a "band" (take notice of the inverted commas) Leh don't have the mood anymore signing off dear readers.

Yours Faithfully,

Arif Bin Omar Lee

Best In Singapore, JB & some say Batam :D
(PLEASE ignore the PCK reference I've been watching it a little too much and I'm becoming a whole lot of an Ah Beng recently)

Alia's uncountable surverys :D haha

Music Survey;1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense.

#1 : If someone say “Is This Ok?” You say?
Wires by Athlete.
pretty emotional song? leh weird answer haha.


#2 : What would best describe your best personality?
Chariot by Gavin DeGraw
Yeah I need a safety net and strength possibilities from a Girl,Sports,Music.


#3 : What do you like in a guy/girl?
Ten by J.E.W. ( Jimmy Eat World)
Yes agreed I need someone to meet me half way.


#4 : How do you feel today?
Jenny Don't Be Hasty by Paolo Nutini
Let me think who's playing hard to get?? *frowns*.


#5 : What is your life purpose?
Everything by Michael Buble
HAHA looks like it's going good so far :D.


#6 : What is your motto?
100 years by Five For Fighting
"Life is short but death is long" thats what the song means to me anyway.


#7 : What do your friends think about you?
Life Is Wonderful by Jason Mraz
So I'm the circle of life ? -_-.


#8 : What do you think about your parents?
California by Phantom Planet
Hermm my parents adventurous?? not sure haha


#9 : What do you think about very often?
Meaningless Conversations by Princes Of Babylon
Well I don't do that haha.


#10 : What do you think about bestie?
Party Up In Here by DMX
Bestie?? apaa tu? best friend isit? well Yudish does make a party when his there lol just like Roshan and Jovan.


#11 : What do you think of the person you like?
Stay With You by Goo Goo Dolls
haha nice..... its kinda obvious I want the person to stay with me.


#12 : What’s your life story?
I Know by Drake Bell
when are you gonna give me a sign God?? waiting...... wait maybe this song is the sign *frowns*.


#13 : What do you want to be when grow up?
Never Know by Jack Johnson
haha seems like my future is untold for NOW :D.


#14 : What do you think when you see the person you like?
How Do I Breathe by Mario
Well I stop a moment when I see her so I guess it's acceptable.

#15 : What do your parents think of you?
Rebel Yell covered by Toby Rand (orignial by Billy Idol)
HAHA yes I'm a rebel =)

#16 : What will you dance to at your wedding?
People Watching by Jack Johnson
awwwww.... sweet song maybe it actually will be a wedding song


#17 : What’s your hobby/interest?
Cheers (tv show) Theme by Gary Portroy
LOL drinking eh? nah but getting to "a place where everybody knows my name" yeah kinda.


#18 : What’s your biggest fear?
Mediocre Bad Guys by Jack Johnson
lol it is kinda true if you wanna be bad do it with enthusiasm.


#19 : What’s your biggest secret?
When It Comes (COMES not Cums haha) by Tyler Hilton
Yeah I want freedom haha and want to be someone the whole way through the adventure.

#20a: What do you think about the person who started this tag?
Err Time by Nelly (Longest Yard OST)
I don't even know the person who started it.... -_-

#20b: What do you think about the person who tagged you to do this entry?
Halo by Bethany Joy Galeotti aka Haley James Scott
well I stole it from Alia so I guess its suiting haha with her piano skills and wit?

I tag Lim U-Howie & whoever is reading this

Lonely For Her....

we've searched for something more fitting to be whole,completion of the equation but we're not wrong if we're just one number.We've just haven't found that right equation thats all - A.O.L.

Yeah I made that.I also prepared this essay before knowing I did the totally wrong topic haha it was pretty good.English was near perfect haha maybe I'll ask pn noriati to mark it just for fun.We'll see.Well my week has been fevered and boring.Full of examinations,emotions and work.English paper was pretty good today.I haven't had the mood to blog recently so don't mind me for the lack of enthusiasm.Lets see what shall I touch on today.Well kakak Qistina is happy with her new boyfriend (shes all lovey dovey) don't blame her :D. I've been indulging myself with Gossip Girl,Greek and American Dad this past few days.The drama keeps me guessing.Went to RSC today with Pranava, Yudish and Hao Sern. Ate spaghetti, garlic bread, fries and Chinese pancakes then after playing catching we got scolded by some lady lol.Ohhh yeah I recently recorded a few covers of songs.Haven't touched my guitar in a long long long time.Sounds pretty good I think but I'll need to improve a few things :D.Thats all I got for now.Signing off.

Yours faithfully,

Lonely Boy

Tagged by Kakak Qistina : D

1) Single, Taken, or Crushing?
Loving
2) Are you happy with where you are?
Yes since I need to be for someone quote " the worlds a 'happy' place"
3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast?
It takes a certain length of time
4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes but friendship is better than nothing
5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok?
Cheating?? be acceptable? NO WAY JOSE'
6) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
Depending on the circumstances.
7) Have you talked about marriage with another person?
Yeah, also imagining teaching dear ol' son a thing or two about basketball :D
8) Do you want children?
Obviously.Bringing them up will probably the 2nd highlight of my life (1st will be being with my wife)
9) How many?
As many as it takes to make a great family
10) Would you consider adoption?
Well if my "salmon" don't swim up stream thats the only solution unless they discover another.
11) If somebody liked you right now, what do you think is a cool way to let you know?
Straight up in the face.Honestly matters.
12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get?
No I'll act as soon as the fish bites.
13) Be honest, do you play the "game" when you are dating?
What freaking game? I haven't dated so ignore the noobie here
14) Do you believe love at first sight exists?
Doesn't it happen all the time? So the answer is Yes
15) Are you romantic?
I can be but obviously with a "certain person" it's definitely possible
16) Do you believe that you can change someone?
Yes.
17) If you could get married anywhere, money not an object where would it be?
Paris, France or wherever my wife decides. (as long as I plan my own bachelor party :P)
18) Do you have feelings for someone right now?
I'm thinking of her right now :)
19) Have you ever wished you could've had someone but you couldn't?
Yeah.
20) Have you ever broken a heart?
Yes but my reasons we're reasonable.
21) Would you ever fight somebody over your significant other?
Always will.
22)What would you say about your last ex?
No past experiences so nothing I guess.


Happy kakak? haha now you know 22 more things about me :D.I'll tag whoever is up to do this

Last Post????

LOL the title is just you get you bimbos (ladies 1st) and douche bags (guys) attention.Well monday blues? how bluesy? Quiet so considering..... lol.Well I'll elaborate more on the bluesy blues (< did that make sense? sorry excuse my blur-ness) Anyway assembly when on as I mentioned in the previous post.Wasn't much a bastard as i thought it would have been but still Monday's assemblies are always long and boring.Sang 'Negaraku' followed by the Wilayah Song followed up with SMKSH school song.After that,the weekly oath and prayers (Doa in translation) Had some BS on discipline which one of our students attended had another VERY LONG oath.Surprisingly headmistresses speech was short (theres a 1st time for everything yeah?).Moved on to class hoping Ustazah wouldn't come in but she did in the end.Gave us our marks and told us whats coming out for mid terms.Seni was usual copying notes for the up and coming exams.While going to recess ran into Ashli (our phones hate each other.I sms her at 9.30 she gets the message at 12 seriously WTF) both apologized for our dumb phones and I continued walking.Recess ended quickly, the "koperasi" didn't open so no just-tea for us.Sivik was a real bore.I obviously didn't finish the work (my book was at home) but still i "tried" my best to finish it (take notice of the double inverted commas) Science was just nothing practically teacher came in and out in a blink.Borrowed Jerry's home-etc project to show teacher I actually did something at home (i keep forgetting to bring mine lol)Then got a drink before getting out of school.Got home after a LONG LONG day and showered and changed,ate,slept (i think i deserve the nickname sleepy head now don't you think?) watched gossip girl (think it's the story that keeps me going) ate dinner,brushed my teeth and now I'm looking at the screen thinking what to write next. Oh yeah I HATE MY PHONE (coz sending texts to Ashli is damn slow.... status pending almost for 1/2 freaking hours) @ Ashli : hope you hate urs too lol.
Signing off I know you love me xoxo (reference from Gossip Girl HAHAHA I'm not gay btw)

Yours Faithfully,

Lonely Boy aka Arif Bin Omar Lee


Music-Whole discography from Jimmy Eat World

On A Sunday Go Once Around

On a Sunday I'll think it through,
on the drive back I'll think it through.
What you wish for won't come true.
Live with that,
with that.

And on a Sunday she thought it through,
now as I drive back, there's thirty-six less hours I have to change
the course I send myself.
Gotta live with that,
With that.


And the haze clears from your eyes...on a Sunday.
Yeah, the haze clears from your eyes on a Sunday.


On a Sunday go once around,
because when the rides done, the hopes that you have carried,
they fall out from your hands back to the ground.
Live with that, with that.
They fall out from your hands back to the ground.
Baby live with that,
With that.


And the haze clears from your eyes on a Sunday.
Yeah, the haze clears from your eyes on a Sunday.


Learn as the drugs leave.
Learn as you lose it.
You will.
Learn as the drugs leave.
Learn as you lose it.
You will.


And the haze clears from your eyes on a Sunday.
The haze clears from your eyes on a Sunday,
on a Sunday.
Yeah, the haze clears from your eyes on a Sunday,
on a Sunday.
Yeah, the haze clears from your eyes on a Sunday.
On a Sunday.
On a Sunday.
On a Sunday.

^ that is Jimmy Eat World-A Sunday (to all those music enthusiast)



Sorry folks needed to post that seeing it was fit (since it's a Sunday) Also because two of my close friends (Girls) are going through a teenage drama.It's normal I guess we are now 15 the BIG 15.Special message to all those lost hearts out there-we've searched for something more fitting to be whole,completion of the equation but we're not wrong if we're just one number.We've just haven't found that right equation thats all.* copyrighted by Arif bin Omar Lee usage without permission will be dealt with force* (< thats my own words for those people who think I plagiarized it your wrong).Well my Sundays have always been a bore.It includes waking up,brushing my teeth,showering,eating,watching tv,reading the papers,checking my mail and who's online at 7 AM (no one interesting haha guess their all night people while I'm a morning person).Well yeah,moving on I watched Gossip Girl thanks to Hazim's recommendation.It's pretty good except for the guys acting skills (need to brush up on that guys).Seems like we're all growing up don't you notice? I still remember when I was on that horse and aeroplane machine (the ones outside supermarkets and in malls) without a care in the world (obviously i was cute back then doing it haha)Once again continuing, I just got the WHOLE discography of Jimmy Eat World after converting the file type from FLAC to MP3 (looked for the converted almost for 2 hours).Been listening to it all day basically :D (how very resourceful I am yeah).Well mid terms are around the block (not using corner since it's too common) and I've been trying to hit the books but failing haha.I'll probably get into the GILA mode starting tomorrow.Assembly is gonna be a bastard tomorrow.Long speeches without reasons (they just want to waste our time) they could easily announce it faster and briefer but we all know Malaysia Boleh (thats right folks everything we do BOLEH one including rempit-ing,dealing underneath the table and the obvious last corruption)Dad says I need to sleep LOL not happening till 11 or so (i don't sleep late sorry DUDES for the disappointment) P.S. (post script to all who don't know) my past week has been great it included sizable amount of surprises,happiness (coz someone needed me to be happy seeing the world is a 'Happy' place),annoyance only before the happiness and the excitement of watching a football game :D (Manchester United beat the living day lights out of West Ham) Signing Off my faithful readers.

Yours Faithfully,

Arif Bin Omar Lee



Music= The lyrics i posted just now is the song.

Appreciation Of Love,Friendship & Other Mentionable Events

Okayyyyyy I'm HAPPY (thought that was the appropriate way of starting this post off.Thanks to someones great advice :D

Received this delightful belated birthday card from Tan Ashli:

thats only the "envelope" haha :D








thats the outside as well (it was in a envelope) >














The inside shall not be shared with you all so sorry to say so :P hahaha.Hints of whats inside;

1)A meaningful amount of 'Belated'-ed
2)Apologies even though she didn't do anything wrong.
3)Faith & Hope that I'll be the same person I am
4)Request for me to stop being "EMO" mentioning that the world is a 'Happy' place <> :P
6)Obviously a birthday wish

@ Ashli - If you can't find your place in the world you'll make a great card maker :D haha (SERIOUSLY) but whatever you decide to pursue I'll be behind you 100% (except maybe a prostitute) that was a joke :D haha


After School;


We went to someones house which is located nearby mine to eat (Canadian Pizza & McDonalds) then played badminton Yudish beat me flat haha same goes for Hazim (I haven't played in the LONG LONG time {not a good excuse but who's asking you??}) just jokes eh :D.Came home after a long day didn't have the mood to eat seeing I was stuffed till things were popping out of my ears ( < figure of speech) and now after a 55 minute phone call with someone I'm blogging :P.Thats all for now fellow mortals but be sure to check tomorrow or the day after for the eventfulness of my LIFE haha.Signing off.


Yours Faithfully

Arif Omar Lee




Music- Work,Kill , & Anything Else from Jimmy Eat World (the comma separates the songs)

Eve Of Labour Day & The Actual Day Itself

Yesterday's events were a handful I shall say *thinking what happened* < LOL .... *after much thinking and flashbacks remembers what happened*

Started the day WITHOUT breakfast lol coz I thought that eezzuan would be going on his daily route to MCD but how very wrong I was haha.Me and Yudish complained about hunger the whole 1st part of school (before recess) < I'm not so sure whether it happened yesterday or on tuesday well wtv.... We had BM (stupid national language) but before that we had assembly (short one since it was Wednesday) then we had Cikgu Kamarul mention/remind our blank heads that we have to attend a "insightful" lecture on Islam.... they talked about all the nonsense "trying" to make us better Muslims examples are;

1) Listing out the famous people who converted or were born into Islam
2)The obvious DOOMSDAY < the result of global warming not some Big guy in the sky

Well I wasn't there (skipped with Alfin & Hazim) we were like spies trying to check corridors and other places for teachers before making a run for it after Montana got caught by Pn Sufidawati. We had our faithful gang (Swee Rong,Yudishtra and James) helped us "look out" for teachers we ran into Pn Faustina but don't think she noticed...lucky us. KH teacher lectured us on bringing our woodwork if not our parents will be informed (my reason is I'm very forgetful so I haven't brought it since).English teacher didn't come so we had free period which included (James jumping over various furniture) and me just bumming around :D. History teacher let us chill most of the time.Later changed into basketball attire according to Ash Li i was depressed... lol I was a tee bit annoyed but nothing really.3 pointers while she was there couldn't go in for some reason so she won the "competition" I had 5 she had 7 lol.We played half court game till like 2.20 then we all stopped then Ejay and Ash Li left seeing that their siblings finished classes.

Later after resting quite awhile that form 2 dude brought his friend (known as only 'number 6 dude') then we played full court.Keefe is now known as Stone Age (for his lack of movement on the court LOL) Swee played well had a few points and one great assist to me which I scored a 3 pointer :P.Tong 'solo-ed' most of the time.Jerry was his usual self but did a nice fake which made the 'Number 6 dude' go the wrong way :D lol.

After all the "exercise" I went home and waited for someone (suppose to SING lol) she didn't come online so I slept while listening to music.Subsequently, woke up to eat then skyped to discuss Today (May 1st) schedule which had to be changed coz Yudish's mom didn't allow him to go out instead stay home and study (don't blame her since Mid Terms are coming) Instead we shall have our "Makan Pizza & MCD Session" after Friday prayers tomorrow.

Today

Woke up showered,ate,watched tv,blogged,went on the computer (this is what happens when I have nothing to do on the holiday) That's pretty much it so I'll sign off now my intellectual friends.


Music - Hear You Me (May Angels Lead You In) by J.E.W. < don't worry I'm not an anti-muslim or anything it's an inside joke J.E.W. stands for Jimmy Eat World :P