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Friday, September 24, 2010

Definitely , Maybe ?

This movie , well , really? It's a good movie , abide it being a American romance/comedy film , it wasn't the kind of plots that you'd often see in our current age of directors spitting out mediocre scripts just to earn a quick buck.

Here's the plot (via Wikipedia http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Definitely,_Maybe )

"Will Hayes (Ryan Reynolds) is a 38-year-old father who is in the midst of a divorce. After her first sex-ed class, his 10 year old daughter Maya (Abigail Breslin) insists on hearing the story of how her parents met. Will gives in, but decides to change the names and some of the facts relating to the various love affairs of his youth, thereby creating a love mystery; Maya is left guessing which of the women will turn out to be her mother. The story he tells Maya is depicted in long flashbacks. From time to time the film switches back to the present, where Maya comments and asks questions.

The story begins in 1992, when Will, a starry-eyed aspiring politician, moves away from Wisconsin and his college sweetheart, Emily (Elizabeth Banks) to New York to work on the Clinton campaign. Over many years, Will becomes involved with several women who enter and re-enter his life including Summer Hartley (Rachel Weisz) who is an aspiring journalist and April (Isla Fisher) who is the copy girl for the campaign. Will and April have a chance meeting outside work, where Will reveals he is going to propose to Emily. When Will practices a proposal to Emily on April, she is taken aback by Will's words, and replies, "Definitely, maybe." They go back to her apartment, where April has multiple copies of Jane Eyre in her collection, explaining that her father gave her a copy with an inscription in the front shortly before he died, and the book was later lost. She has spent years buying copies of Jane Eyre from secondhand stores, hoping to find the copy her father gave her.

Emily comes back to New York where she confesses, just after Will proposes that she slept with his room mate. She did this on purpose to break up with Will saying that she is "letting him go".

Will first meets Summer Hartley when he gives her a diary she wrote when she was a teenager from Emily. He finds that she is going out with a famous writer who is old enough to be her father. However, the writer breaks up with Summer and Will starts a relationship with Summer. Meanwhile April quits her job and goes to travel around the world. Will plans to propose to Summer when April comes back to tell him she loves him. However, she realises that Will is going to propose to Summer and does not tell him. Summer writes an article about Will's client which ends their relationship. Will loses his jobs and fights with his work colleages and his dream goes down the drain.

April calls after a long while and finds that Will is unemployed and unhappy. She throws a birthday party for him where he is reunited with his old work colleagues. In a drunken rant, Will confesses romantic feelings to April, but in the process ends up having a fight with her, telling her to "go to life-rehab". Some time after the fight, while walking the streets of New York, Will finds the copy of Jane Eyre that April's father gave her. He goes to give it to her, but decides against it when he meets her boyfriend Kevin, with whom she is living.

Emily re-enters Will's life and turns out to be Maya's mother and Will's ex-wife, as Maya correctly guesses. Will explains to Maya that the happy ending had been Maya all along and they share a hug and part ways as Maya leaves with her mother. At home, Will finds the book he has been saving for April, and goes to her office. After learning that she is now single again, he gives her the book, but when she finds out that he was holding on to it rather than giving it to her immediately, she becomes angry and asks him to leave.

Maya is happy that she figured out the story, but also realizes that her father still loves April, as even though Will changed the names of Emily (Sarah in real life), and Summer (Natasha in real life), he did not change April's name. Encouraged by Maya, they go to her apartment where Will confesses to April that he held on to the copy of Jane Eyre because it was the only thing he had left of her. As the three enter into April's building, April springs into Will's arms and kisses him."


So in many ways , this was a man who had hopes and dreams of being the President of the United States . Good aspirations , I suppose . To be someone who stands up for not only himself but a institution , a country . In the end tho , what he stood for comes crumbling down . With the Clinton issue and his running candidate , caught up in a scandal.

Moving on , New York does many things to a man . Especially so when he's love of his life is miles and miles a way (I'm a firm believer that long distance relationships work but I haven't been in one , so I can't say much) So he slips , he kisses a girl he barely knows .

Thru the story as you can see by the plot he ends up with "April" so this epic love story , somehow has an ending but it ended prematurely , one of the ways that American films tend to avoid , as Americans like a straightforward ending , no thinking needed to know what happened , which I'm on the plank on which side I like more , depends on the story I suppose :)

Heh , so I can relate but I haven't been on the journey just yet , just starting my story. Let's see how I end up , hopefully I learn along the way too , just like Will here.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Leaving.

I guess I've always had a complex with people leaving me or ignoring me . It probably came from my younger days , with moving around and all . Mom's never helped either , with how she is. I feel it happening it again and again , sad eh? The thing is , this is coming from the people I thought knew that I'd do anything for them , minus shedding a limb or two. I was there for these people and they just brushed me off when they were happier . Thing is , I care too much . I listen to their problems , I access , conclude and try my best to help or just simply be there.

Sometimes letting something off your chest to someone that isn't involved at all , helps . Yes it does , even I've done it before and let me tell you , it's the best feeling in the world ; letting everything out and that person not judging you.

Maybe I should stop caring about people , or maybe befriend people who actually appreciate me (in good times and bad times) or maybe I should just drop off the face of the earth , go off the map . Just so they realise that they miss me.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

What Matters The Most.

Sometimes heartbreak has to happen to teach a man , what is important in life at a certain time and now after losing my first love , I've learnt that love will come and go at odd times and sometimes it'll surprise you like it did me this year but for all its worth I don't regret it cause it was what I wanted at that time . I've moved on tho sometimes I feel lonely but yeah don't love cause you're lonely , love cause you really do love that someone.All that matters is ;

My family
My true friends
My future
My physical well being
My emotional well being.

Yes all those above matter , and right now my emotional well being is fine being single . I've just got to prepare myself for the real world , the world that's looming after high school . After this superficial life that we've been living for 5 years . No longer will "clique's" exist , well not in the way it was in high school anyway. Its time to grow up and be matured , with that playful child still in mind :) not to worry .


So now , it's about SPM , I'll have to put aside my social life and sit down alone and study . After that we can talk about Mixed Martial Arts , learning Mandarin and Yoga classes . Just concentrate for 2 months + and we'll be done with it. You can do this , yes I can.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Aware

May we abandon all those who choose to hate us and stay close to those who care for us.
Even when sometimes you have you let go your ego and just let go.

Chance

Won't you give me a chance
to show you that I can
be that man
that man that can make it right.

I told you unconventionally
so make me understand
why we can't be ideal
nothing more so real.

I bailed once
you did too
i just need one chance
to show you that we can.

We'll compliment
no , we won't depend
on what they say
or what we hear.

Yes we can dear
so don't fear
or tear
no more.

You and I
lets make it
make it
an adventure.

The above is not for my ex but for my next.

Friday, September 10, 2010

Joke of the Day.

A girl asks her boyfriend to come over Friday night and have dinner with her parents. Since this is such a big event, the girl announces to her boyfriend that after dinner, she would like to go out and make love for the first time.

Well, the boy is ecstatic, but he has never had sex before, so he takes a trip to the pharmacist to get some condoms. The pharmacist helps the boy for about an hour. He tells the boy everything there is to know about condoms and sex.

At the register, the pharmacist asks the boy how many condoms he’d like to buy, a 3-pack, 10-pack, or family pack. The boy insists on the family pack because he thinks he will be rather busy, it being his first time and all.

That night, the boy shows up at the girl’s parents house and meets his girlfriend at the door. “Oh, I’m so excited for you to meet my parents, come on in!”

The boy goes inside and is taken to the dinner table where the girl’s parents are seated. The boy quickly offers to say grace and bows his head.

A minute passes, and the boy is still deep in prayer, with his head down.

10 minutes pass, and still no movement from the boy.

Finally, after 20 minutes with his head down, the girlfriend leans over and whispers to the boyfriend, “I had no idea you were this religious.”

The boy turns, and whispers back, “I had no idea your father was a pharmacist.”

Saturday, September 4, 2010

Solace

"I'm gonna stop this guy, win, lose... it makes no difference, it ends tonight. This is my fight. Everyone's got one..."

- Jake Tyler -

Some fight for fun , others as a lively hood , some fight to release anger & find comfort , a selected few do so for their families , and you might be surprised but some fight to find solace. Taekwondo , did that for me once upon a time ago & it gave me discipline , strength , & a healthy sweat once a week . After SPM , i'm joining the boys at kick boxing to once again find solace,comfort and release anger. Hope they guide me well once I get there.

"It's on you, always has been, always will be."
- Jean Roqua -

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Shoe wishlist ;)


1609ER Adidas Authentics





TOP TEN LO C.S. Adidas Originals



Country II Leather Adidas Original

BFaB

"Born from a boombox"


Moose: (from trailer) People dance because dance can change things. One move, can bring people together. One move, can make you believe like there's something more. One move, can set a whole generation free.


I myself have always been easily influenced by non-harmful or non-sinful hobbies , such as surfing,playing the guitar,playing badminton , and ever since the first Step Up 1 , I always wanted to dance. You may be thinking i'm just another one of those posers but I'm being truthful . I always wanted to bust a move on the dance floor but my lack of self esteem never helped.

Music gives a voice and platform for people to express themselves . Whether it may be by singing,playing music or dance to it. Whatever it might be , express yourself through good means :)

"Live the life , live the dream . No fear"

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Light Over Darkness.

He chose darkness , along with hate. To fill his heart . To empty his heart from sorrow and pain , for which he didn't care . But secretly he did and with all of his heart . He spent nights thinking whether everything was okay , whether you were okay . Accompanied with hatred and yet his heart still loved her.

He then had a dream and in that dream , she passed on and he could no longer do anything nor tell her that he still loved her , even though it hurt to do so. In this dream , he regretted his decision. He gave up his ego to tell her this.

After shouting at each other & sorting it out , these two souls decided it'd be better for both of us to just stay friends.

So the boy chose light over darkness. Maybe God wanted him to do so and allowed him to dream such a nightmare. To shake some sense into that boy and tell him that he has better things to do then to hate someone he loves and is loved by.

"To ask for forgiveness , there is only forgiving to do"

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Memories.

Gotta watch you burn like a pyromaniac
Look at the way you made me act
So obscene, not even a time machine would take me back,
To a time when gravity couldn't hold us down we had to be,
Together, 24/7, anything else seemed like blasphemy,
Now it's a catastrophe, I'm mad at you, you mad at me,
What happened to us? Its sad to see, I'd rather leave,
Then irritate eachother skate b4 we hate eachother,
Fates got something greater that's waitin patient for each of us...
Don't turn around girl, you know you had enough,
Just go in peace now, yeah throw them deuces up,
We went from two to one, now back to two again,
And despite what we been through, I still call you my friend,
I love you so much, that's why I gotta let you fly,
We had our moments baby, see em all in the blink of an eye,
So spread your wings cuz there's better things, when you sore up high,
And reminisce on this final kiss as we say goodbye.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Wasted Time

I am here to tell everyone , I am okay :) I don't think about her anymore nor do I love her anymore , in fact I hope she suffers for the rest of her life regretting her decision for giving up on us . I still hate her ( that won't ever change) because of her excuses/reasons , her ice queen way of hurting me without thinking at all how I'd feel and her not feeling a single thing.

& I will disclose her reasons/excuses for giving up on us ;

#1 - I am a Muslim , therefore she cannot accept me for what it says on my IC . As she worries about how hard it'll be for us to get married.

#2- The fact that I'm half Malay.

#3 - Commitment issues (then why did you commit to me in the first place?)

yes all of those were her "reasons" . & yet she couldn't see us through till we had to deal with it. Believe me , I thought it all out , in my mind on how we'd overcome this and there was a way but I guess she didn't trust me enough to know that I would've done everything in my power to be together , rather that or she simply let me off easy with her "reasons" Either way , I came out on top . Learning many things and experiencing things I definitely wouldn't have if I never got in this relationship.

Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.
— T.S. Eliot

So I bid you goodbye , suffer without me :D cause I'm doing A-okay without a person like you in my life.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Loser

I gave everything I had to you. My heart and soul and yet it wasn't enough. This has made me think and I don't think I'll ever be the same. No matter how long time passes I will no longer be the same person people thought they knew. I don't think I'll ever put myself in a relationship again. It hurts. The loneliness , I think it could kill someone slowly.

After seeing you on Saturday , i'm more confused then ever. More so in my life have I ever been this confused. Confused about whether there is still an "us" I will not plead to God as it won't help.

I never thought someone could love me and you did.

" Tragedies happen. What are you gonna do? Give up? Quit? No. I realize now that when your heart breaks , you gotta fight like hell to make sure you're still alive.'Cause you are.And that pain you feel? It's life.The confusion and fear? That's there to remind you that things will get better. And that is worth fighting"

I can't fight anymore.I wanna give up. Yes I'm a loser.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

I feel like writing but I dont know what to write -_-

HAYIOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Hell & Back

Yesterday thru the evening I was pondering how I was gonna get myself to Victoria Institution for the Librarian/Koperasi inter-school basketball competition.

From asking Ian for a lift to considering taking a cab to asking my cousin where my uncle worked thinking it was at Kelana Jaya but thank God it was actually in Town.

Slept at 1 + AM .I woke up at SIX:THIRTY AM (ON A HOLIDAY).FUCK YOU MARCUS WONG -_- .So sitting in the car was well uncomfortable/awkward lol , we don't usually talk to each other so it was mostly silent the whole way to town.

Anw , I met up with Ian at the Hang Tuah monorail station. Thrilled at finally seeing a familiar face tho he said he saw Pn Izattul on he's way there in the train.Funny eh :P ANYWHO , made our way to VI but without some difficulty. Personally , I haven't been there and Ian on the other hand hasn't since form 2 so he's directions were fuzzy.

After asking a friendly side sweeper , it lead us to the road on Hang Jebat passing Stadium Negara , where I went for the Jason Mraz concert :) and didn't know the school was right behind it : / pftt oh well.

Btw , since its my first time there the SCHOOL WAS HUGE. Anyhow , waited there without seeing any other familiar faces for 30 minutes before seeing Ong Kiat and eventually finding out that it was POSTPONED TO FRIDAY (this really ticked me off) as organizers you should freaking TELL us that it's off BEFORE HAND. Marcus wasn't even there , as tho he knew it would happen.

" -_- "

^
is all i can give you

Ian and I were really pissed , so we went to MCD to chill for awhile before I had to head to Keefe's and he had to go back home.Got to talk for 40 minutes or so.Great catch up session , must do so more often since he's my "bro" .

We then left after having bk'fast and headed back to KL Central.Drizzled a bit , so maybe it was a blessing that we didn't have the competition that day. Still i'm peed-ed off :P We said goodbye and parted ways.

I had to take the KTM while Ian took the Putra Line.Mine took longer to depart as it usually is that way.Read "The Guardian".

Got off the train and headed to Keefe's house in Sri Sinar by cab , got there at aprox 11 + .Waited for him while he went to the pharmacy to get medication and a bandage as he aggravated his twisted ankle while jogging in the morning.Had a quick conversation with Uncle Ric about soon arriving World Cup : D then Keefe made he's way back from the pharmacy and we waited in his room for Howie.

Moose , came into the room unexpectedly and we started off.Decided what song(s) to perform for TTDI's IU :D then made alot of progress with SHEER OPTIMISTIC SEMANGAT-NESS : D hopefully we'll make it thru their auditions.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

One

Sunday, April 11, 2010

8

I see that number and think , of the things that has been done associated with it.The number of championships , the number of shots missed , the number of seconds left on the shot clock , waiting for you to make it , and most of all I see my last Sri Hartamas basketball jersey number.I feel sad at the same time , cause this will be my last chance to make an impact.

That impact that I've been hoping for ever since I picked up a ball.Just the sheer thought of making a game winning shot gives me goose bumps , but somehow I will make that game winning shot.I know Ian won't be there as part of our duo but I will be playing out there for everyone in Hartamas.

I will proudly wear that clown jersey and win every game.
I will make that game winning shot
WE will hold our heads high
WE will always remember the times we had during basketball seasons
and most of all
WE will be number one

LETS GO HARTAMAS !!

Friday, April 2, 2010

Bye Bye Beautiful (really this time)

This is a happy post , it really is.

Treating people like a safety net is a horrible thing to do especially when you don't tegur them at all when your on the tightrope living it up.So since you've been doing that to me since ever.I'm gonna say I DGAF ! anymore :)

Bye.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

The Tracks of My Tears.

Since you left me, if you see,
me with another girl,
Seeming like I'm having fun,
Although she may be cute,
She's just a substitute,
Cause your the perfect one.

Monday, March 15, 2010

Never pour out your heart (to one person)

To expect something so big from someone is wrong , you put them in an uncomfortable situation.I wished I didn't tell you , not cause I don't want you to know but its just now you're the only one that does.Its hard to not have you there for me : / I'm ok mostly but everyone has their lapses.

Its times like this you regret.You burden people , without reason.Without thinking of how they feel.She came again today and I don't wanna tell you.I don't want you to worry.

So kids , never ever pour your heart out to one person.You'll regret.

On a happier note , I bought jelly beans :) and had ice cream tehee.

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Up up and away.

Recently , I've been in the darkest place I could be (not literally tempat yang gelap) you get what I mean.I thought I was ok since standard 3 or so but I wasn't.You don't know why , you shouldn't know why but I just want to let you know that I'm not ok.Probably never will.

Through it all,only one person listened.No one else knows.Soon I hope it will end referring to the thing I was thinking about doing.Not cause there's no one there to listen to what I have to say but whether they care and listen sincerely.Whatever it is , I will do it before the end of this year unless things turn around.For now I will do what he did and see what happens.Maybe getting away will make it all better.

First emotional post since long long long long long time ago.Thanks for listening , bai.

Friday, January 8, 2010

Amongst one of the epic One Tree Hill quotes.

Mouth: Take a look at yourself in a mirror who do you see looking back?
Haley: Is it the person you want to be?
Dan: Or is there someone else you were meant to be the person you were meant to be but fell short of?
Mia: Is someone telling you you can’t or won’t? Because you can.
Chase: Believe that love is out there.
Nathan: Believe that dreams come true every day. Because they do.
Peyton: Sometimes happiness doesn’t come from money or fame or power. Sometimes happiness comes from good friends and family and the quiet nobility of leading a good life.
Julian: Believe that dreams come true every day. Because they do.
Brooke: Believe that dreams come true every day. Because they do.
Peyton: So take a look in that mirror and remind yourself to be happy because you deserve to be. Believe that.
Lucas: And believe that dreams come true every day. Because they do.