8

I see that number and think , of the things that has been done associated with it.The number of championships , the number of shots missed , the number of seconds left on the shot clock , waiting for you to make it , and most of all I see my last Sri Hartamas basketball jersey number.I feel sad at the same time , cause this will be my last chance to make an impact.

That impact that I've been hoping for ever since I picked up a ball.Just the sheer thought of making a game winning shot gives me goose bumps , but somehow I will make that game winning shot.I know Ian won't be there as part of our duo but I will be playing out there for everyone in Hartamas.

I will proudly wear that clown jersey and win every game.
I will make that game winning shot
WE will hold our heads high
WE will always remember the times we had during basketball seasons
and most of all
WE will be number one

LETS GO HARTAMAS !!

Bye Bye Beautiful (really this time)

This is a happy post , it really is.

Treating people like a safety net is a horrible thing to do especially when you don't tegur them at all when your on the tightrope living it up.So since you've been doing that to me since ever.I'm gonna say I DGAF ! anymore :)

Bye.

The Tracks of My Tears.

Since you left me, if you see,
me with another girl,
Seeming like I'm having fun,
Although she may be cute,
She's just a substitute,
Cause your the perfect one.

Never pour out your heart (to one person)

To expect something so big from someone is wrong , you put them in an uncomfortable situation.I wished I didn't tell you , not cause I don't want you to know but its just now you're the only one that does.Its hard to not have you there for me : / I'm ok mostly but everyone has their lapses.

Its times like this you regret.You burden people , without reason.Without thinking of how they feel.She came again today and I don't wanna tell you.I don't want you to worry.

So kids , never ever pour your heart out to one person.You'll regret.

On a happier note , I bought jelly beans :) and had ice cream tehee.

Up up and away.

Recently , I've been in the darkest place I could be (not literally tempat yang gelap) you get what I mean.I thought I was ok since standard 3 or so but I wasn't.You don't know why , you shouldn't know why but I just want to let you know that I'm not ok.Probably never will.

Through it all,only one person listened.No one else knows.Soon I hope it will end referring to the thing I was thinking about doing.Not cause there's no one there to listen to what I have to say but whether they care and listen sincerely.Whatever it is , I will do it before the end of this year unless things turn around.For now I will do what he did and see what happens.Maybe getting away will make it all better.

First emotional post since long long long long long time ago.Thanks for listening , bai.

Amongst one of the epic One Tree Hill quotes.

Mouth: Take a look at yourself in a mirror who do you see looking back?
Haley: Is it the person you want to be?
Dan: Or is there someone else you were meant to be the person you were meant to be but fell short of?
Mia: Is someone telling you you can’t or won’t? Because you can.
Chase: Believe that love is out there.
Nathan: Believe that dreams come true every day. Because they do.
Peyton: Sometimes happiness doesn’t come from money or fame or power. Sometimes happiness comes from good friends and family and the quiet nobility of leading a good life.
Julian: Believe that dreams come true every day. Because they do.
Brooke: Believe that dreams come true every day. Because they do.
Peyton: So take a look in that mirror and remind yourself to be happy because you deserve to be. Believe that.
Lucas: And believe that dreams come true every day. Because they do.

2009 , bye bye beautiful.(much needed update)

I'm lazy , we all know that.When it comes to blogging I have to be extremely inspired or EXTREMELY bored.This time its the latter.Well well , 2009 is coming to an end.She took lives,she gave birth but most of all its the first time I've danced D : so lets say she caused some embarrassment too.

All in all it was a good year for me.I learnt from mistakes,learnt from friends and most of all learnt from myself.Its time to grow up and not be a kid.We can have our moments at times but remember always to be kind :)

I'll try to recap eh.

January: was bummed cause of my knee , but ended up well.Not fitting in class , that too ended well.New friends were made and infatuation was key in this month.

February:Things started to pick up and since I was nominated for prefects the second time , I thought what the heck.Might as well learn something and make new friends.All those people who talk badly about them won't understand till their on the opposite side.Misjudging and stereotyping is bad for a reason.

March:Basketball season began , we were really hyped up this year cause of our strong lineup.To no avail we got 3rd , Ian and I learnt to be benchwarmers but I gained experience & next year it'll be up to us to show Zon Bangsar that we're one of the best.

April:Prefects camp , rememberable at best.Never really warmed up to the form 5's but after camp got closer to everyone :)

May: I don't remember this month at all for some reason , heh must of been sleeping at home. (Updated as I reached July) This was emo month.Struggling with my heart.After all of it though ,lets not fall head first into love.Think first.Always.

June: AHA so the once probate has now become a prefect.Not so weird in blue after all.People treated me different ._. for awhile then it died down.For all its worth , I hope I changed for the better.

July:Akouein , was good while it lasted.Still think all of them will be famous some day.IU performance was great.Singing in front of 300 + people , now anything less seems so easy :P

oh for July I found this : "Things to acomplish by the end of the year :
get at least 5 A's (This didn't happen,missed it by 1).perform 10 more times(Missed this by 8).get a new phone(Didn't happen but I'm close,waiting for the Milestone, Motorola).be connected more(Was,for the most of the year.Thanks to Harris for lending he's notebook to me).stay outta trouble(Well didn't cause that much havoc :P).be more friendly(Yupp,met some good people).wait another 2 months(think this has something to do with my ankle , I did wait but got it sprained again D : ).win a competition(Nope).do all my homework ._.(Epic fail,this didn't work but I swear next year I'm putting my foot down and making sure I get straight A's)have a good time at prefects dinner(yeah it was great till it came time to do the sketch ._. sorry ex form 5's).get my guitar re-strung(Accomplished three times).stay happy (unless unavoidable) (Stuck to this).move(heh not yet,soon I hope).get a car( I should have called my grandmother after writing this,she sold her Civic for 5 K,still regretting).learn to PROPERLY drive a manual car , possibly my grandmothers old Honda Civic(failed).tie up loose ends(Yes I did).dance. (this is for Yudish) lol (Ask them how I did :P).Get a part time job(Was going to but didn't).make sure THEY end up together(they did for awhile but sometimes you can't force things).go on a road trip (Malacca twice once with family the other with the PRS bunch).hug 10 more people(accomplished (Y)."

August:Spent most of my time watching Smallville & covering songs.

October:Exams , finished up with that shit and started having fun.

November & December: Messed up my ankle , Fazlan oh Fazlan how I love you so much :P LOL.Started the hols off with going to Sabina's party (Y) then started the one day out and one day off schedule.Going out having fun.Events to mention are Yudish's bhagara party (Y) , Malacca with PRS , Sleepover at Daniel's (I don't exactly remember when this was so it might not have been during the hols) , PRS dinner , 2012 , Avatar , going to cousin's house , covering songs , going to grandmother's house, spending time with friends and spending time with family.